Everything Old is New Again

There’s a Christmas song going around in my head as I start the New YearThe song is, of course, ‘Amazing Grace.’  What, that’s not a Christmas song?  But isn’t that what God’s arrival on earth as a walking-around-among-ushuman was? Is?  Amazing grace…

Extended over and over again as Jesus makes His way into our lives, moving into our world right where we are in our fallenness and humanness.

I’m banking on that daily this year as I move forward….for that is the only direction we can go—falling forward, even though (true confession) one might feel like a fraud.

Perhaps I’m being too harsh, but here are my thoughts: I’ve written in this space many, many times about the importance of stillness, listening and Sabbath-ing.
Not in a stop-what-you’re-doing-and-rest-for-an-entire-day-kind of Sabbath—because that’s not doable in my world. No, I mean Sabbathing on the Page—taking an hour a day or an hour a week to steal away and listen to the Holy Spirit speak and write down what you hear.

The importance of listening and stillness came home to me three Januaries ago when I read this book by LL Barkat (who coined the idea of ‘Sabbath on the Page’). I am passionate about the practice, primarily because of personal revelations that came to me and my confidence God wants to lead others in hearing from Him this way.

I’ve shared about it at a Retreat, blogged about it, and consider it in thought and practice the foundation of my small space here on the internet.

But the reality? Stealing away to listen and write, be still and hear God’s voice hasn’t happened much this past year. Hence the fraud feeling. There have been very, very few hours I could call my own.  At the end of a long day of work, running errands and involvement at church and Life in General, there’s just no time.

The longing to get away is what I miss, the excitement of hearing from God, the confidence He will speak, the intimacy afforded me with my Jesus while I just sit.

What’s changed in the last two years? Well, my husband retired; he’s home all the time. I suppose that’s a practical answer, but maybe it’s just an excuse. If I really thought an hour alone outside every day was important, I’d make a way.
So I’m penciling in writing time this year and quiet-out-on-the-deck listening time, even if it’s only once a week.

Because….God’s grace~He just says, “Come.”

So I will begin, standing at the the edge of the puddle that is my life…. Amorpohous right now, changing and moving, blown about by the wind. But as I step towards the quiet, still center, there I’ll see my reflection—find who I am, who God is, as I lean in and find the beauty mirroring back to me in the skies….

This song by Fernando Ortega really ministered to me this week:
~~~~~~~
Linking with Kelly for #SmallWonder Link Up 


13 thoughts on “Everything Old is New Again

  1. I'm so glad you're working on another Retreat, Kelly. God in the Yard is an easy read….There are only 12 chapters (supposedly 12 weeks) but it took me 7 months to complete….'cause you know, time. But it was so worth it.
    Oh, and I'm so glad as well that God sees our hearts.

    Like

  2. Thanks for linking, Jody 🙂 I believe I REALLY need to read that book, especially as I'm working on a Writing related retreat. And, we all feel like frauds now and again. I'm thankful God sees the desire of our hearts, not just the times we get it right!

    Like

  3. Nancy, you are so sweet…. That thought occurred to me the other day after I wrote this–trying to balance the desire and longing of my heart with the realities of life. It's just a new normal for me–and I think the fact that I WANT to pleases the Father. When I show up, He'll speak. But it's not like He's mad at me in the meantime…. It's like the story of the Prodigal Son–the Father didn't belittle him when he came home, he threw him a party. So–just come when we can, right? (and kick that devil liar to the curb when he shows up).
    I sure appreciate you 🙂

    Like

  4. Sometimes my daughter will call and begin our conversation with an apology about not having phoned for awhile. (We do text quite frequently.) I always tell her, “Honey, I know how crazy-busy your life is. Don't worry about it. I love you, you love us, and that's the most important thing.” Might God feel the same way when legitimate busy-ness interferes with long, relaxed respites with him? I think so. Knowing your heart, Jody, (through your heart-revealing blogposts!) I'd say just your desire for meditation time pleases your Heavenly Father. And when you ARE able to deck-sit and journal, he's not saying, “Well, it's about time!” He's saying, “Jody, I love you, I know you love me, and that's the most important thing. You're a sweet daughter to take the time now for some one-on-one time. I do appreciate it!”

    Like

  5. Oh, I'm glad you are going to venture out into this. It reminds me of something I heard Deepak Chopra say about meditation, “If you don't have time to meditate once a day, you need to do it twice a day.” 🙂 It made me sit down today and make time to meditate. Blessings to you, Jody! I know God will use that time with him in precious ways.

    Like

  6. I hear you. Being still in God's presence and listening…that's what I love most…yet it is challenging to find that time within family chaos. But so worth to make the effort. So I keep trying to do so preferably every day but as often as possible. Thank you for this post, Jody. God's richest blessings!

    Like

  7. I love that song, too, and was just listening to it yesterday. I think I need to read this book about sabbath on the page. My “to read” stack of books is getting overwhelming, however.

    Like

Thank you for stopping by...your comments light up my day!

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s