What did I do to deserve this? is the wrong ask.
Because you didn’t.
Do anything.
There is no quid pro quo/cash economy in this wide
invisible, Kingdom-filled world. The sunlight searching
between oak leaves, the slant of green on the birdbath,
chime of silver in the breeze. It’s all gift.
Like the sloppy kiss of a two-year-old or an unexpected
letter in the mail, you are worth surprising.
Don’t quibble with your questions, paint your Creator
God as an if/then Saviour. He is a because/when God.
Because you are mine, I will pour out my gracelings
when I want, to whom I want.
Just look up from time to time and say thanks.
That is always the correct answer.